It took me 14 long months to lose that 20 kg, I had just started running at this point and was also doing pump and cycle classes. I was starting to feel really good about myself and I was eating so well, still doing WW then.
I found myself pregnant, which was a huge surprise. After a very traumatic birth ending in an unnecessary c/s with my first son, I joined a home birth forum, as I wanted to have the next baby at home.
I got more into this forum, and went to meets, which was mostly fine. But this forum has the attitude that being fat is OK and you should accept it. I got majorly sucked into this attitude and stupidly gave up everything, the gym, eating well, and WW. That pregnancy did suddenly end, but I stuck with the forum, as I thought I had made some friends.
Around 4 months later I found myself back at just over 100 kg, I felt gross, so heavy, I couldn't move that well, I didn't have the energy to run around with my toddler, all the fatty food I was eating made me feel awful. I was so so stupid, to give up being healthy. Its NOT ok to be overweight and unfit. I was not a good role model for my child. Its not the forums fault I got sucked into those thoughts, and gave up. That forum was good for the birth trauma and home birth info, but I can leave the rest. The supposed friends I had made didn't give a shit about me, it seemed that I lived too far away from the rest of them to be offered support when stuck on the couch with morning sickness when I later got pregnant again.
So that is why I gained back all that weight I had lost, but never again. I want to be able to jump on my sons trampoline without breaking it. The weight limit is 80 kg. I want to run around and play on the floor with my sons. Its already much easier to do most of those things.
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